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Post by jenn on Aug 3, 2019 6:00:50 GMT
I should not have stayed tonight, but I STAYEEEEEEEEEEEEED! Was I paranoid af? Yes. Was I blowing up Jake's messages because I thought he was going to try and blindside me? Yes. Did I overthink everything and leak that I had the idol? Yes. BUT I'M STILL HERE AND STILL HAVE THE IDOL. Anyways, yes I'm aware this puts Jake basically in the best position, betting on that people like Jeff, Brian and Duke are still going to want me out over him and now I could be nice and let Cabrera get back together and give us the majority next round and then BAM, we could ride it out to 4, and while I'm on a high right now that sounds great because I'd take 4th to be completely honest, it's just not realistic. Me before an after each tribal council tonight: Me when Jen C. says we have a rivalry: Me on this journey of self-discovery in this game:
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Post by jenn on Aug 6, 2019 0:11:12 GMT
(I meant to post this yesterday but fell asleep at 8pm so bear with me)
Okay, so I wanted to write this out instead of make a video so I can hopefully put it a bit more eloquently.
It seems clear to me that Jake and Ashley are the front runners to win. As returnees, they’ve had a target on their back and I think they’ve each shown a decent amount of smarts in regards to their strategy. Jake getting votes and Ashley losing basically her whole tribe back to back save the one person who voted for her... they’ve got points to argue at the end. I’m obviously biased because they’re the people I’m closest to in the game, and I’m torn. I recognize I’d need to cut them to even have a slight chance, I mean they’re both social with almost everyone and I’ve been “the quiet one” for the entirety of the game. I don’t know if that’s been how I’ve decided to cope with being seen as a winner or if I’ve lost my touch. Could also be that I just don’t vibe with most of this cast, whoops. Combo of all three?
Anyways, my problem here is if I were to survive the next vote or two, the best thing would be to vote out Jake and then Ashley thereafter. The issue here is that I’d have to rely on someone like Duke, which I don’t think is in the cards. Speaking of Duke, I think he’s definitely in Jake’s end game plans, because he doesn’t see him as a challenge threat and even Jen acknowledges he was MIA during the swap. I really don’t have a good grasp on Ashley’s end game plans and I’m waiting on both of them to fill me in about the nests hatching. Ashley doesn’t really have a reason to tell me, and I can’t blame her since I haven’t told her about the idol but Jake keeps playing dumb about it which is annoying.
I don’t want to think too far in advance, because I’m a big believer in avoiding tunnel vision in Survivor at all costs. Which is mainly why I don’t care who I get to the end with, as long as I get there type thing. Or I guess I care who I’m sitting next to, but not how much of a threat they’re perceived to be. In a perfect world, it would be me, Ashley and Jake, just so I could be 100% I was going to be content with the winner of the season. However, they have some sort of rivalry going on - Ashley CLOCKED Jake’s game while we were planning for the double, and Jake is trying to subtlety hint to me that Ashley needs to go. I’m not going to be involved in any of that. The other problem here is that I’m going on vacation next Saturday, and I won’t have the time or wifi to put my all into this, which is a huge bummer because I do think I could if the final challenge was posting, I could do really well, you can’t win them all.
I’m also thinking it might be smart to try and get the OG Cabrera back together, at least from a numbers perspective. If we survived this vote, we’d have a majority, though I think April is still pissed or wary of me and it feels like Logan has been talking to Jeff and Brian lots as of late and I wouldn’t be shocked if he digs his heels in to vote Duke, or even Jake at this point. I originally thought today I’d want to keep Jeff in because I know Ashley is suspect of him, and to be honest, he’s always sketchy but I think it’s just the way he talks. Like I messaged him during the break before the second tribal of the double, he didn’t respond, then afterwards messaged me immediately to ask if I’m feeling better now. Well I would’ve felt a lot better if you told me how you were voting beforehand but I’m still here so I guess I can’t complain Jeffery!
In my mind, Brian is the biggest threat left, other than those I want to keep because of a building friendship, which as corny as it sounds, is most of the reason why I’m even playing this stupid game. But Ashley gives all the credit to Brian for the Sean and Jen votes, which I can easily see him claiming to a jury and make it believable. He was ranked last on his OG tribe, turned it around and was able to correctly time a successful blindside against them? Check. I’m actually impressed. Might have to rethink this a little so that April, Logan and Duke don’t team up? I don’t fucking know. And I’ve learned this game that I actually have a big mouth. The idol was burning a hole in my pocket before I told anyone, like I literally couldn’t sleep, I was so torn up about what to do with it. Then today I really put my fuck it flag out in the wind and straight up told Jake I think Brian should go next and this that and the other thing.
This game has me stressed. I dreamt last night (and I never remember any dreams) that we were all at tribal council again, and somehow Jake convinced me to play the idol on him after he was already safe with immunity, and my dumbass did it and then they all blindsided me. What does my psychology degree say about that one eh? Part of me feels like it stems from a mostly game focused relationship with Jake so I’m always like is this even a trustworthy person? Or because I feel the bad karma coming after voting for him? And then I’m so paranoid about everyone else because no one messaged me first. I’m just waiting for Logan to turn on me and for Ashley to sacrifice me to save herself (this would suck in the moment but I’d have to applaud it afterwards). I think overall though it’s probably just a fear of looking dumb in the game and being blindsided without knowing. I know I haven’t played a great game this time around, at least not socially, which sucks to admit.
Brian has now started to hint that a Cabrera should be next to leave, which isn’t unexpected but it’s still rude. He talks to me the least, but I don’t think/am hopeful Ashley wouldn’t go for that and she’d push for April instead maybe. Or should I try and get all the votes on me and then just play the idol?
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Post by jenn on Aug 6, 2019 4:26:53 GMT
Okay, first and foremost, FUCK PICKLES.
Secondly, if what I've heard tonight is true, I'm about to use those fucking pickles to choke Logan and Ashley. ITS RUDE OKAY!!!
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Post by jenn on Aug 6, 2019 7:15:36 GMT
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