Post by jeffharris on Aug 9, 2019 19:17:58 GMT
... where do we begin?
Let's pick up with the INSANE tribal where Duke went home.
The day started off so simple. As I said in my video we had a plan established and we just had to roll with it.
So around 9:50 I go out for a smoke (it's terrible, I know) to calm myself before tribal. Duke calls me and tells me 'I think they're coming for me'
Huh?
and I'm like "Why do you say that?"
Apparently someone tipped him off that the other side was voting for him instead of shooting at Jenn like I thought we were doing.
He asks me to saddle up and vote with him and the others to evict Jake.
After ending the call I immediately tipped off Jake to let him know to gear up for battle.
I walk up the steps to my apartment and as soon as I walk in the door my laptop goes off as Logan, Ashley and Duke are calling me on a group chat to discuss what the attack plan was. Within just 2 minutes, someone, I think Duke, said that "Jake knows we're targetting him, he's freaking out right now"...
That was my bad, I forgot to tell Jake to keep it cool.
So as I'm vehemently denying the accusations of deception and betrayal my phone rings again from another skype call, David and Jake are calling to get an idea of what we're going to do tonight. I'm in the kitchen so I picked up the phone while the group chat on my laptop is on low in the living room.
I talk to my crew for a few minutes, and as I'm walking back to the living room to go back to my laptop and mute the group chat I was on, it was apparently loud enough for the people on my phone to recognize the voices of the tribemates on the laptop but DID NOT hear any actual conversation as I hit the mute button.
Production asked me "is that another call" and I replied "yes, but I've muted it to have this call". Unfortunately they deemed it a violation of the rules stating that I "allowed other players to listen in on a call that influenced the game". I disagree with the decision, but I accepted the punishmentS.
1. I had to self vote (my FIRST and only vote of the season thus far)
2. It was announced to the tribe on the live tribal and I took the moment offered to apologize to the players, production, and the viewers.
3. I wasn't eligible for immunity in the next challenge.
In my opinion, it's a bit overkill for an incidental accident that in no way changed anything about the night's vote, but again, I accept that I made a mistake and the consequences of my actions.
So once that got announced to everyone (pre tribal) one by one ppl stopped talking to me, and come to find out, they were plotting to boot me because of it!
But Logan and April weren't having it and said NO to the idea, and Jake/Brian weren't going to let that happen either.
So I made it through and Duke caught the axe...
I liked Duke a lot, I'll definitely miss chatting with him. But I'll talk to him soon again after the games done.
Since then shit's been semi quiet. Ashley was pissed off at me and even took Skype off her phone for a day as she traveled because she was so mad at me for "betraying her". It took two days but I eventually reached out to her and explained that not only did I not "let people listen in on a call" but that I had still been looking out for her best interests throughout this game by playing with the other side to keep her off the chopping block.
It took a 90 minute conversation last night to regain some trust with her, but I feel as if I'm fighting an uphill battle in that effort and that she'll never quite trust me the same again... which (as hard as it is to say/type...) may mean it's time for her to go before she takes a shot at me...
More later as tribal looms nearer and nearer...
P.S.
I can't express enough how unintentional my actions were, I love this game and I would NOT want to win this game by cheating. It was never my intention to share information in that manner, when I would've just as easily had told them that on a call anyways. To the production staff who put so much time into this game, all the people who are playing/have played this game in the past and to all the viewers, I apologize profusely and hope you can forgive me.